This one is gonna be simple today.
I am so sick and tired of trying to explain that panic and depression is ruining my life, and that if it were so easy to just stop being this way, I would. I am sick of it to the point where I am going to kill my drug phobia and start taking an anti depressant just so I won’t get this enraged when people talk about emotional disorders as though they are so easy to overcome. Taking the drugs is the only way I am going to be able to exist on this planet without wanting to punch someone or stab myself in the neck. I am sick of defending my fear, I am sick of asking people to support me, I am sick of … Everything. Fuck it.
I won’t defend myself anymore. I will stop trying to reason with people who will pretend to understand and then talk shit behind my back.
I am so FUCKING sick of this shit.
phuktneurotic 